Fake, simply reddish book

I push my own buttons: Am I weird? Normal? Am I the ONLY one? At least I get it, I realise that I am not flawless, and my flaws pisses me off... well not in a "I-have-a-zit" kinda way, just like : "Ohh... I shouldn't do that, I should do..." But then, I just won't... I get up the next morning and just forget about it OR play it out saying; it aint THAT bad...
Like me being single...not that I am searching for anyone to fill the void (no, just like most girls of my age ((or is it?)) I am awaiting the prince charming. Let's all blame Walt Disney! Yes I am waiting... not much of a do-er in life so why (but mostly how) would I get to find mister right... I tend to attract weird, nerdy, not cute guys...see nerdy I can deal with it but the other two are harder for me... the thing is I am not sexy, nor beautiful, I can sometime be pretty... and that's rare, only on some good days...so since I am NOT ugly every (let's say weird) weird guys comes for me, thinking that they can have me, since I am not too cute for them... well their reasoning is not SO bad... but I am still in the phase of " I can still get Brad pitt to find me attractive!" *lol* Yep... I know ALL of those things, just let them get to me first, I'll gulp them and then I'll accept them... 10 years from now! This is bad I know, won't get me a guy.... there was this one (P.), really thought I had him for a (short) while... but then he blew it... or maybe he didn't, it was me; putting in my head some (crazy, impossible) scenarios about how we would end up together... sometimes I still found myself 'dreaming' about our futur... really I am SO impossible! But I still have some hope... the guy broke my heart and I still have some (faint) hope that he may be asking for me... time...I need some time.. and look, the thing is he told me I was cute and that he would like us to be together (in bed)... ok was he joking?... does a man lie? (wait, yes, but that's not what I meant) See... sometimes girl are 'joking' around, not meanly, I guess the word if fooling around... was he? That I'll never know!

They name-checked me in 'Island in the sun' by Weezer. They did... something 'great MC', but I am not SO good with my english hearing so might have said something else, OR might have meant something else..because I do know MC stands for something related to music (me?) I actually don't know what it actually means...IF ever I get to be a celebrity I want my name to be MC... simpler to say and to write for America and it does have a ring to it AND I think I would be like my alter-ego MC (yes, I do have one!) with a couple of tattoos on the arm and hopefully, some cute actor around me... at this time, my ego ((and I SO shouldn't say this)) is going out with G.H. I am not telling on them (LOL) **Crazy Moment**

I am still thinking about having a blog about my ego... rattling, blabbering about what she does, and with who.... should I, I am kinda scared about me.... opening up... but then NO ONE reads this blog... and I am certainly not going to advertise it around (though, I, maybe, should)

This was a real pleasant blog entry... cute, interesting...

MC